Sunday, 30 November 2008

也许我错误地看得起自己

2008年11月30日,那时候是上午11时+,蕾蕾空着肚子随着妈妈到学校去看成绩。

那种害怕的心情,我不会形容。我只可以说我的心,一直跳、一直跳。有点儿不想去,我怕面对现实。

害怕的心情随着我们的脚步愈接近办公室而愈强。我们在小亭子站了许久,才真的上楼去。

哪里知道,成绩还没有出。

负责人给我看了一本记录簿,是记录我们的成绩的。剩下2科——BM & BI还没有出炉。其他出了的科目不要讲,就讲数理科好了。除了Modern Maths,Add Maths、Physics、Chemistry和Biology都只有40+50+的分数。

其实一看到这种分数,我心里竟没有什么伤心,就只有那一点点的失落感。

谁知,这种感觉,好像在一口一口慢慢吃着我的内心那样,时间越久,我的心就越痛。
眼泪都在眼眶打滚了,我不敢让它们往下掉。

看来,这一次,跌班是跌定的。

也许,我太看得起自己了。

什么读书一下下就几粒A在手,废话一堆!我从来没有拿过这种分数的啦!也许自己真的是太自大了。

看着那本记录簿的时候,我竟然连好朋友的成绩都不望一眼。我没有看其他人的成绩,是因为我已经没有了那种想要竞争的心理。我知道,我争不过了。

之前所期望的full A1,在一瞬间被我放弃了。

我就是读不起理科,我不敢奢望了。


p/s:
其实写这一篇文章时候我还是有点点伤心,不过写到后面就没有了。现在肚子还很空、很饿,等下妈妈煮好午餐我就猛吃!呵呵,我很好。^^

Friday, 28 November 2008

I Also Want To Sayang 'You'

Tagged by candice.
Going to give this to...(kiakia....who tag me the long long one before har?)

THE SELF

[01] Real name: HL
[02] Nickname: Forever HL
[03] Married: single
[04] Zodiac Sign: Leo
[05] Gender: Female
[06] Age: 16(2008)
[07] High school: SMK SYP (1)
[08] College: Not yet that old
[09] Height: Not gonna tell you
[10] Weight: This one too
[11] Do you like yourself: 50-50
[12] Piercings:Yes
[13] Right or left: Both
[14] Are you a freak: Yea
[15] Hair: Not very long
[16] Skin: Fair
[17] Allergic: To bullshits
[18] What are you doing now: Blogging
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: Watch movie maybe
[20] What will you do 10 years later: Continue to blog

THE FAMILY

[21] Live with mother/father/parents: Parents
[22] Siblings(included you): 3
[23] Eldest: My eldest brother
[24] Youngest: Me
[25] Love/hate your family: Not gonna tell you I love them

THE LOVE

[26] You found your another half: No
[27] If yes, who is he/she: No No
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: The one who loves me
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: 0
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): No
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): Stupid ones
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: Not yet
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: No
[34] Ever argue with your other half: Not yet
[35] You with your other half since: My mother gave birth to me
[36] Are you straight/Lesbo: What's Lesbo?
[37] Reasons you love your other half: Not gonna tell you too
[38] You and your other half in which stage: Last stage
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: We woo each other
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: Yaya ==

THE FRIENDS

[41] Your first best friend: Me myself
[42] Your first enemy: Me myself
[43] The friend you love the most(1 only): A girl
[44] The enemy you hate the most(1 only): A boy
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: A girl
[46] Your most handsome boy friend: A boy
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: The kind of girl who makes me hate her
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: The kond of boy who makes me hate him
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: No
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: No
[51] If your friend backstabbing you: Backstab him/her back
[52] If your friend betray you: Betray him/her back
[53] If your friend woo your lover: Woo back hers
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: Then ma let him fall lo
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: I'll continue to love him

THE STUDIES

[56] Are you a good student: Not really
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: No
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: No
[59] Always late to school/college: No
[60] Your class: This year 4Sc1
[61] You love your seniors: No
[62] Seniors who you love the most: None of them
[63] Your classmates good/bad: Good+bad
[64] Excellent result classmate: A girl and a boy
[65] Laziest classmate: Him

THE PEOPLE

[66] Smart people: Not me
[67] Stupid people: Not me too
[68] Good looking people: Not me
[69] Ugly people:Not me too
[70] Funny people: Me myself can?
[71] Cute people: Not me
[72] Bad people: Not me
[73] Honest people: Half me
[74] Acting people: Him
[75] You are what kind of people: Funny kind

THE PREFER

[76] Lip or eyes: Eyes
[77] Hugs or kisses: Hugs
[78] Shorter or taller: Taller
[79] Hesitant or spontaneous: Hesitant
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice arms
[81] Listener or Talker: Both
[82] Romantic or rich: Both
[83] Good husband or good father: Both

THE FUTURE

[84] Age to get marry: 30
[85] Numbers of kid(s): Tell you when i have had enough
[86] Career: Reporter
[87] Salary: Enough for me to spend
[88] Retirement age: Ask my future boss
[89] Properties value: huh?
[90] Wishes: Get straight As in my SPM

THE VICTIMS

[91] Blue-coloured Rain
[92] Jasmine_pzj
[93] Miss Yang HL
[94] ---
[95] ---
[96] ---
[97] ---
[98] ---
[99] ---
[100] ---

How come I feel like this one is almost same like the one before?@@~

Thursday, 27 November 2008

点名啊!

Jasmine白痴、杨宝贝和蓝色雨欺负人家的!

(1)被點到必填,不填代表你不尊重傳給你的人和問卷。
(2)請老實的回答每一個問題。
(3) 不行擅自塗改題目。
(4)寫完請點8位小朋友,不可不點。
(5)點完後請通知那8位小朋友他被點到了。
(6)那8位小朋友填完問卷,必須把問卷寄回 - 給你填問卷的人

--------------[ 壹 ] . 個 人 題 - 10 題 --------------

[ 01 ] 你叫什么: Forever HL
[ 02 ] 你的綽號: 蕾蕾
[ 03 ] 你的血型:好像是0型的
[ 04 ] 你的星座:狮子座
[ 05 ] 你是男還是女:女
[ 06 ] 你幾歲:年轻过jasmine&蓝色雨,老过杨宝贝
[ 07 ] 你住哪裡:家里
[ 08 ] 你現在的學校:SMK SYP (1)
[ 09 ] 你有沒有手機:没有
[ 10 ] 承上,那是多少:huh?

--------------[ 貳 ] . 朋 友 題 - 10 題 --------------

[ 11 ] 你最要好的朋友(限1個):1个女的
[ 12 ] 你最討厭的人(限1個): 1个男的
[ 13 ] 你最正的女性朋友(限1個): 1个女的
[ 14 ] 你最帥的男性朋友(限1個): 1个男的
[ 15 ] 什麼樣的女生你最討厭: 讨我厌的女生
[ 16 ] 什麼樣的男生你最討厭: 讨我厌的男生
[ 17 ] 你的好朋友有誰(不限):男的女的都有
[ 18 ] 你經常和哪位朋友出去:女生朋友
[ 19 ] 你身邊最憨的朋友(限1個,不能自己):我那最敢的朋友咯
[ 20 ] 你身邊最可愛的朋友(限1個):我那最可爱的朋友咯

--------------[ 參 ] . 感 情 題 - 15 題 --------------

[ 21 ] 你有沒有喜歡的人:没有
[ 22 ] 如果有,那她叫什麼: 就算有也不是“她”
[ 23 ] 如果沒有,那你希望什麼時候有另一半:当我希望有的时候
[ 24 ] 到目前為止,你跟多少人告白過:0个(蓝色雨,我比你更痴)
[ 25 ] 到目前為止,你被多少人告白過:好像是1个
[ 26 ] 到目前為止,你交過多少個男/女朋友: 0个
[ 27 ] 你現在有另一半嗎: 没有
[ 28 ] 你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你會怎樣:没有怎样
[ 29 ] 你初戀情人突然跟你告白你會接受嗎:不知道
[ 30 ] 你為什麼會喜歡你現在喜歡的人:都说了现在没有喜欢人
[ 31 ] 你跟你的另一半牽手過嗎:我快晕掉了
[ 32 ] 你跟你的另一半抱或親過嗎: 这样死缠烂打,有啦有啦
[ 33 ] 你跟異性牽手過嗎:嗯
[ 34 ] 是誰,你們什麼關係: 好朋友
[ 35 ] 現在有人在追你嗎:没有

-------[ 肆 ] . 混 合 題 - 10 題 --------------

[ 36 ] 如果有天,好朋友離你而去,你會怎樣:伤心
[ 37 ] 如果有天,好朋友背叛你,你會怎樣: 背叛回他
[ 38 ] 如果有天,好朋友對你喜新厭舊了,你會怎樣: 找过另一个啦
[ 39 ] 如果你很受不了你的父母,你會離家出走嗎: 不会
[ 40 ] 你上課認真嗎:不
[ 41 ] 你上課都在做什麼:讲话
[ 42 ] 你功課好不好: 还ok
[ 43] 你打開電腦都在幹麻:写部落格
[ 44 ] 你的即時通裡有多少個同性:huh?
[ 45 ] 你的即時通裡有多少個異性:huh?

--------------[ 伍 ] . 兇 手 題 - 10 題 --------------

[ 46 ] 傳給你這份問卷的人是誰:哇,多咯--jasmine、蓝色雨、杨宝贝
[ 47 ] 這個人對你好不好:嗯
[ 48 ] 這個人是你的誰:blog友
[ 49 ] 你有喜歡過這個人嗎:到现在都还很喜欢这些人
[ 50 ] 你們認識多久了:几个月吧
[ 51 ] 這個人是怎樣的人:不一样的人
[ 52 ] 這個人正/帥嗎:walao,一级棒啦
[ 53 ] 這個人有沒有喜歡過你:没有啦
[ 54 ] 這個人跟你有沒有在一起過:没有
[ 55 ] 萬一你喜歡這個人,你會怎麼辦:去喜欢他(她)咯

-------------[ 陸 ] . 聯 想 題 - 10 題-------------

[ 56 ] 說到正妹你會想到誰:阿正的妹妹?
[ 57 ] 說到帥哥你會想到誰:陈冠希
[ 58 ] 說到憨你會想到誰:Harry Potter
[ 59 ] 說到痴你會想到誰: 痴的人
[ 60 ] 說到暗戀你會想到誰:他
[ 61 ] 說到出去玩你會想到誰:朋友
[ 62 ] 說到聰明鬼你會想到誰:聪明的鬼
[ 63 ] 說到傻子你會想到誰:傻的儿子
[ 64 ] 說到笑點低你會想到誰:幽默的人
[ 65 ] 說到愛笑你會想到誰: 我自己行吗?

-------------[ 柒 ] . 學 校 題 - 11 題 --------------

[ 66 ] 你的班導是誰:讲了你也不认识
[ 67 ] 你的座位是第幾排第幾個:假期了,没有座位了
[ 68 ] 你最喜歡的老師是誰:我妈
[ 70 ] 你的英文好嗎:可以去吧
[ 71 ] 你的體育好嗎:曾经是自己组别田径选手一名
[ 72 ] 你的數學好嗎:烂
[ 73 ] 你喜不喜歡你的校長:不很
[ 74 ] 你的學校好看嗎:不
[ 75 ] 你的班級是:今年4Sc1,明年还不知道
[ 76 ] 你的班級在幾樓:2

感觉上我在讲废话多过回答问题。=,='''