一边听歌一边Facebook，突然间很有写东西的feel。
我一向都是个坦荡荡的女生。做事常常粗心大意但光明正大，从不在任何人背后重伤过别人。而且我有话直说、是非分明，敢做也敢当，人前人后依然是同样一个我。偶尔，我甚至喜欢搞一点点的小叛逆。
我就是很满意这个优点少少缺点多多，但符合我自己的我。^.^
就是这首歌，促使我写下这篇短文。
Friday, 29 July 2011
Friday, 22 July 2011
What are 'Sorry's words?
Sorry I'm not being really good.
Never meant to hurt anyone here. But I'm just a girl like this. Maybe a little bit too straight forward, but I mean no harm, really.
Sorry for throwing more stones into the well.
Maybe I did this on purpose: writing all those things, showing all my bad feelings. But I was just trying to protect myself. You know, I'm scared, for being hurt... again...
Sorry I made this too easy to be understood.
Sometimes things are just too difficult to be concealed, especially those which are in my heart for years. Now only I realise that they have always been there, waiting to be spilled out, unlike what I thought for many years that I actually can leave them untouched forever.
Sorry I wasn't really there.
I was never a 100% good friend, never always been very very supportive or helpful. I don't blame anybody tagging me this way, but please, I always try hard to be one... in case no one notices. =)
All I want to say about is sorry sorry and sorry. Please don't think too much. I'm okay, I'm loved. And I love being cared.
Never meant to hurt anyone here. But I'm just a girl like this. Maybe a little bit too straight forward, but I mean no harm, really.
Sorry for throwing more stones into the well.
Maybe I did this on purpose: writing all those things, showing all my bad feelings. But I was just trying to protect myself. You know, I'm scared, for being hurt... again...
Sorry I made this too easy to be understood.
Sometimes things are just too difficult to be concealed, especially those which are in my heart for years. Now only I realise that they have always been there, waiting to be spilled out, unlike what I thought for many years that I actually can leave them untouched forever.
Sorry I wasn't really there.
I was never a 100% good friend, never always been very very supportive or helpful. I don't blame anybody tagging me this way, but please, I always try hard to be one... in case no one notices. =)
All I want to say about is sorry sorry and sorry. Please don't think too much. I'm okay, I'm loved. And I love being cared.
True friendship lasts forever. So friend, I believe I will see you in eternity.
Friday, 15 July 2011
人，这脆弱的东西
我不明白为什么世事难料，很多东西往往在我们不再多想的时候又重新被人提起。不明白为什么每当心里最深处隐藏的东西被触动之后，总会让我郁闷许久。有时候想逃离这种让人不舒服的心情，是很辛苦的事。就好像我坐在教室里，明明眼睡得要命，老师却还要继续催眠曲般的课文，而我又没法潇洒地闭上眼睛。
当然，两者之间扯不上什么关系。我只是想拿个无聊的比喻，形容我那辛苦的心情。不过原来这样的形容，也是辛苦的。
人类真的是很奇怪的动物。每每伤心的时候，都会尽量用笑声把自己的悲伤给隐藏起来；对某人有意见的时候，也都不直接了断告诉对方，而是把问题累积在心里，等到有一天无法忍受的时候，才来爆发，才来闹得不可收拾。
请问这么做，值得吗？这样的生活，有趣吗？
看到这样的问题，大多数人都会很理性地回答，“不”。当然，这只是他们用理性在回答问题。但理性往往都败给了情绪。当事情真的发生在自己身上的时候，要如何做选择，已经超乎我们正常管辖之内了。那些所谓的争执、殴斗，不就是因为这样给惹出来的吗？
人的内心是复杂的，所以人与人之间的感情也是复杂的。与多年好朋友相处，也免不了偶尔会误会对方说话的意思。因为一个人永远没有可能完全懂得另一个人心里在想些什么，或要婉转地表达什么。因此，不要把一切发生在你身边的事情当成理所当然。没有一个人理所当然要对你好、对你无私付出。
所以当你发现好友有些异样的时候，要试着去摸索他的内心世界，就算你永远不会成功。这么做，至少你不会把他伤得太深太深……然后要在许多年之后才因为受到同样对待而发觉、而道歉……请允许我这么说：“现在才察觉？太迟了”。因为你已经伤害了他，所有的一切，都已经不可能像从前那样。
今天又是一个下雨天。我没有多愁善感，这只是内心倾谈。
当然，两者之间扯不上什么关系。我只是想拿个无聊的比喻，形容我那辛苦的心情。不过原来这样的形容，也是辛苦的。
人类真的是很奇怪的动物。每每伤心的时候，都会尽量用笑声把自己的悲伤给隐藏起来；对某人有意见的时候，也都不直接了断告诉对方，而是把问题累积在心里，等到有一天无法忍受的时候，才来爆发，才来闹得不可收拾。
请问这么做，值得吗？这样的生活，有趣吗？
看到这样的问题，大多数人都会很理性地回答，“不”。当然，这只是他们用理性在回答问题。但理性往往都败给了情绪。当事情真的发生在自己身上的时候，要如何做选择，已经超乎我们正常管辖之内了。那些所谓的争执、殴斗，不就是因为这样给惹出来的吗？
人的内心是复杂的，所以人与人之间的感情也是复杂的。与多年好朋友相处，也免不了偶尔会误会对方说话的意思。因为一个人永远没有可能完全懂得另一个人心里在想些什么，或要婉转地表达什么。因此，不要把一切发生在你身边的事情当成理所当然。没有一个人理所当然要对你好、对你无私付出。
所以当你发现好友有些异样的时候，要试着去摸索他的内心世界，就算你永远不会成功。这么做，至少你不会把他伤得太深太深……然后要在许多年之后才因为受到同样对待而发觉、而道歉……请允许我这么说：“现在才察觉？太迟了”。因为你已经伤害了他，所有的一切，都已经不可能像从前那样。
今天又是一个下雨天。我没有多愁善感，这只是内心倾谈。
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