14/6 is the day

About 3 more weeks to go till my piano exam. Taking Grade 8 exam for the second time(failed last time *^^*) making me more nervous and stress. If I fail once again, I'm gonna quit.

 I SWEAR I WILL.

Maybe music just isn't my field. All these years I've been trying so hard, practising so hard, working on so hard, yet the outcome was never really satisfying. Maybe it's time to face the truth that I'm not that talented when it comes to music. Nothing to be ashamed of, there are others ain't good as well.

Furthermore, I am just nothing more than a normal girl.

Passion isn't gonna bring me any further in this path. All that's left is just the effort I had put into playing music. That is the only thing that keeps me from walking away. After all the hard work, I just shouldn't. And I couldn't.

I still love music. I still love music like I did years ago. The problem is it no longer loves me. All I can do now is to give myself one last chance, face this exam like a woMAN with no fear, and hope it gives me an opportunity to prove myself too.

Gonna be one tough month though. So, have to keep myself alive with so many 'Jia You's and try to survive. =)

就只这一天

踏入新闻界，是我一直以来的小小愿望。但是，马来西亚新闻界最近所发生的事情，不禁让我心寒，失望了。

媒体的工作，不是隐藏事实真相啊！

不过其实记者们真的很可怜。他们这样报导，被民众骂；不这样报导，被上面骂。左右两难，不过也只是为了找口饭吃。他们的辛酸，我们有怎会懂得呢？受打压的人，永远都有自己才最明白内里实况。那些不真实的报导是经他们手做出来的，难道他们就不比我们烦恼，不比我们愤怒吗？

可他们又有何能耐呢？

所以，为了我国的新闻自由，为了重燃我心中的那团新闻火，我决定响应号召，支持这一天的“活动”。

今天，蕾蕾要大声说：“我大力支持新闻自由日！还我们真实报导！”

在路口

好啦，我脾气也发够了，回来更新了啦。:P


明天蕾蕾要去KL一趟，去interview（要进大学咯～heehee~)。

很兴奋，也很紧张～～～

听说是1对1的面试，还真是第一次有这种事情发生在我身上。之前JPA的interview都是几个人一起进的。

我不知道要怎么做，也不知道有什么应该不做，你们有没有人可以告诉我？蕾蕾好害怕错过这次机会，就什么都错过了。

须知，这可是我的first choice咧！也是我在local U这么多choices里面唯一比较要的course（其他都是乱按的），所以期待也蛮高的。

不过听说收生很严，一班都只有十几个人。我的成绩又不是很突出，担心面试的表现也不是很优秀……另外，不知道会不会有很多人跟我一样去面试呢？（是越少人越好吧？：P）

疑团好多，也好困惑。虽说只是进去几分钟“聊聊天”，但我都快弄到睡不着觉了。

要好好准备，好好准备……

因为机会是给准备好的人的。=)


p/s 1：是不是只要申请就会被叫去interview？还是因为他考虑你才被叫的？^^
p/s 2：我真的很讨厌blogger这个新样貌，超不适应的！><