阔别读书的日子已有半年多。这段时间里，我不提笔，少读书，成天就只坐在电脑面前………………也说不着在做什么。“翻查”面子书也有，下载港剧也有，随便浏览网站也有，就是没有个固定。
老实说，现在的生活除了早上起来晒晒衣、拖拖地，其余时间就是在电脑面前度过。当然，偶尔也会摸一摸钢琴，会一会周公。但，大部分时间，仍然是与电脑为友。
好像和它已成为一体一样。
这是现代人的通病，往往都不会带来好下场——我发觉，自己越来越像个loner，喜欢自己一个人，喜欢孤单，喜欢活在自己的世界里。我甚至学会了享受这一种属于自己一个人的冷清。
因此，对很多事情也生疏了。
早前心血来潮想要写些东西，怎知铅笔握上了几个小时，却始终吐不出一个完整的句子来。脑子里来来去去就只出现几个较普遍的词语，所以零零散散写了几个字，却接不了下句，最后唯有作罢。
然后我有些失落了。
突然怀念起以往那种每天写作的日子，还有过去那种很爱写的心情。现在的脑袋被太多太多肤浅的事情霸占着，堆得满了，我也找不到当初自己单纯喜欢某种东西的心情。
日子如此单调，心里却如此复杂。
然后我告诉自己该醒了。
突然想要对自己负责任一点。就算是假期，也要假期得有意义一点。娱乐之余，我要做我真正爱做的事情，我要写很多很多我爱写的故事，我要朝我坚持的梦想前进。
毕竟我是要读中文系的人啊！
Friday, 29 June 2012
Tuesday, 22 May 2012
14/6 is the day
About 3 more weeks to go till my piano exam. Taking Grade 8 exam for the second time(failed last time *^^*) making me more nervous and stress. If I fail once again, I'm gonna quit.
I SWEAR I WILL.
Maybe music just isn't my field. All these years I've been trying so hard, practising so hard, working on so hard, yet the outcome was never really satisfying. Maybe it's time to face the truth that I'm not that talented when it comes to music. Nothing to be ashamed of, there are others ain't good as well.
Furthermore, I am just nothing more than a normal girl.
Passion isn't gonna bring me any further in this path. All that's left is just the effort I had put into playing music. That is the only thing that keeps me from walking away. After all the hard work, I just shouldn't. And I couldn't.
I still love music. I still love music like I did years ago. The problem is it no longer loves me. All I can do now is to give myself one last chance, face this exam like awoMAN with no fear, and hope it gives me an opportunity to prove myself too.
Gonna be one tough month though. So, have to keep myself alive with so many 'Jia You's and try to survive. =)
I SWEAR I WILL.
Maybe music just isn't my field. All these years I've been trying so hard, practising so hard, working on so hard, yet the outcome was never really satisfying. Maybe it's time to face the truth that I'm not that talented when it comes to music. Nothing to be ashamed of, there are others ain't good as well.
Furthermore, I am just nothing more than a normal girl.
Passion isn't gonna bring me any further in this path. All that's left is just the effort I had put into playing music. That is the only thing that keeps me from walking away. After all the hard work, I just shouldn't. And I couldn't.
I still love music. I still love music like I did years ago. The problem is it no longer loves me. All I can do now is to give myself one last chance, face this exam like a
Gonna be one tough month though. So, have to keep myself alive with so many 'Jia You's and try to survive. =)
Thursday, 3 May 2012
就只这一天
踏入新闻界，是我一直以来的小小愿望。但是，马来西亚新闻界最近所发生的事情，不禁让我心寒，失望了。
媒体的工作，不是隐藏事实真相啊！
不过其实记者们真的很可怜。他们这样报导，被民众骂；不这样报导，被上面骂。左右两难，不过也只是为了找口饭吃。他们的辛酸，我们有怎会懂得呢？受打压的人，永远都有自己才最明白内里实况。那些不真实的报导是经他们手做出来的，难道他们就不比我们烦恼，不比我们愤怒吗？
可他们又有何能耐呢？
所以，为了我国的新闻自由，为了重燃我心中的那团新闻火，我决定响应号召，支持这一天的“活动”。
今天，蕾蕾要大声说：“我大力支持新闻自由日！还我们真实报导！”
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